Sunday, May 15, 2005

idols.. champions.. whatever!

Mali pala yung nasa last post ko... si Monica Belluci (na dinedate ni Constantine these days) pala yung girl na nagbigay kila Neo nung Locksmith for a kiss sa Matrix Reloaded.. u know.. yung line nya.. "I want you to kiss me.. like you kiss her.. (points to Trinity a.k.a. Kate Moss)"

anyway.. here's a pic of connie.. so hot!! Gah!!
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here's connie from elimidate.. who would have thunk?! Our greek god was once a mortal too!
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here's connie again with his date on the premiere of star wars.. candace from nickelodeon... im so friggin jealous..
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On a lighter.. less deadlier note..

Mann.. cute talaga ni Christian Bautista.. I still can't get over my crush on him. he's soOOO cute.. and he has the voice of an angel! how can a mere mortal like me resist??!! hahhyyy.. *sigh*

I was surprised yesterday na me girlfriend pala si Anthony Federov. I admit, naging member din ako ng Federovtion nung kinanta nya yung incomplete, i surrender at you don't know me by now. hahhy.. kung kelan naman gumaling sya sa mga mata ko.. tsaka naman sya natanggal..

split na daw sila nung gf nyang russian.. nagselos ata ke Carrie.. ewan! daming rumours na kumakalat sa PEx...

Con-whore mode once more..

ah basta ako, eto.. Mrs. Maroulis wannabe pa din.. one time.. hahalungkatin ko yung thread sa forum.. yung fan accounts sa come back party nila ng banda nila.. mann.. grabe.. *thinks lusty thoughts..* ah basta.. oh.. eto na pala eh..

here's one.. all these are from PEx which the PEx ppol got from GGG (Greek God Groupies)
it talks about their album's release party last may 10 (bday ko po!)

You rock girl! I'm Michelle (papilion). Remember seeing me there? What a total blast watching the boys rock their heart out up close! Here's my recap of last night. I am still trying to sink in what happened and couldn't believe I was actually there.

At around 8:30 Taylor went on stage first and told us that this was a private party for the band¡¯s fans only and how the band appreciated us being there. No cameras or recording devices of any kind were allowed. They had their own crew photographing and videotaping the show and will make these materials available through their website. Taylor also said that about 60,000 CDs were already shipped---that would introduce them into the Billboard, I guess! Then Joao and Hamboussi came out---Hamboussi was totally adorable wearing a traditional Chinese outfit. After that who else but Constantine??? As a reporter already described, he¡¯s wearing this leather jacket, ripped jeans, with black leather back pocked. Freaking HOT. He looked EXACTLY like how he appears on TV. And all those faces he made---the smile, the nose wrinkle, the tongue (yep, he stuck it out a couple of times! And every time we screamed!), the vulture look---completely the same! Yet up close you can really appreciate how gorgeous he actually is and that he got radiant and smooth skin---a little bit sweaty though. We walked on the stage one by one to get our CDs and 8x10 band photos they put there signed by the band members. I must have looked like a complete dork wearing those glasses and went like ¡°I am your biggest Chinese fan! Can I get a hug?¡± He said ¡°yeah¡± with a smile and signed the photo, and hugged me. I was being such a good girl and only grabbed the back of his jacket. After that I also asked him to sign my CD cover. Then I went offstage being completely nuts and all those girls were giving me high fives. At one point he took his jacket off and you can see the black T-shirt inside is like two-size-smaller tight and outlined his body (a little bit tummy, but who cares) WELL. Gee, I hope I could¡¯ve got a jacket-less hug. But anyway. I was just so thrilled that it was almost surreal. I watched him doing autographs for another 40 minutes or so. He chatted with fans time to time, with frequent smile on his face, and threw a couple of bottles he had emptied to the crowd. I hate myself not being athletic enough to catch one. At one point he had the pen in his mouth as if it were a cigarette and looked around. Total breath stopper.

Around 9:30 about everyone in the club (100-200 people, 99% female, I think) has got their autographs. The boys chilled out backstage for about 10 minutes and Taylor came out, shouting to us ¡°Do you want to hear Constantine sing?¡± And we said ¡°YEAH!!!!¡± Taylor said that ¡°legally¡± Constantine was not supposed to perform or sing at this moment. But he came out for the party and rocked it out anyway. He sang five songs in a row: Drift, Rich B*, Sally, Suicide, F*up world. Totally dynamic and dramatic on stage. A lot of hair tossing, and jacket flipping. He even completely lay down on the floor as if in a seizure for a moment during ¡°Drift.¡± Other things he did includes wrapping the microphone cord around his neck, sprinkling up a mouthful of water, and, yes, grabbing the pecker (I insist on keeping the specificities of that memory to my own). He also did a lot of moves that matched up with the lyrics. And he¡¯s singing right into the crowd all the time. I was up on the front only behind two other girls and kept flashing my signed photo. I thought he saw it and smiled for a second. Taylor said that the band had like only two rehearsals after Christmas, but they sounded awesome. And they¡¯re solid, such great chemistry. Constantine¡¯s vocal¡¯s absolutely fantastic, full of passion and power. You can tell where his heart truly lies from his performances. Hamboussi threw his drum sticks out at the end of the show and one of them slipped right across my fingers and got caught by the girl behind me.

After ¡°F*up world¡± the band said thank you and went backstage. Many people left at this point, but we die-hard fans decided to stay and see what was going to happen. I saw Athan, Constantine¡¯s older brother, going out of backstage once. I had a bottle of beer, when Taylor, Hamboussi, and Joao went out to talk to fans. Around 11:30 Constantine appeared again. He popped up from nowhere and was standing right in front of me, smiling, talking, and taking pictures with people. At this moment I truly regret that I didn¡¯t bring a digital camera because now pictures were allowed. Soon the tough-looking club bouncer came up and literally pushed me away. He got Constantine seated behind a table in an encircled seating area. We could still go up asking for autographs and pictures. Fortunately I had a disposable camera with me and I made my way for a picture and a personalized message---I am really keeping my fingers crossed how that picture would turn out because there were a bunch of people around us at the time. Then I just stared at him (couldn¡¯t stop) behind the crowd and took a number of snapshots until I ran out of film. At 12:00 the club bouncer started to push us out while Constantine was still seating there with a group of people that seemed to be some special guests. I felt depressed that I was forced to leave when he hasn¡¯t left yet and regretted that I didn¡¯t choose a profession anywhere close to entertainment or radio business that might get me into that special circle. But I had a total blast watching him performing and getting up close and personal with him and the band anyway.

here's another one.. i love the last friggin paragraph..

OK, so autograph table...yep yep yep...got up there and more hugs and kisses from the guys then Cons stands up and says thank you and I say thank you so much I love you guys so much and he said I love you too hug and kiss - and, in case you were wondering - he smells like HOT LEATHER. eeep. His hair is so soft and the gruffy stubble is too. He has perfect and beautiful hands. I am so sorry I couldn't get an autograph for the girl who pm'd me! I totally meant to ask about our CD zep, but completely forgot all about it when I was hugging and trying to speak - I think you can understand how I could forget so you forgive?

They must have signed 300 or more autographs, and poor cons had to kiss them all. Seriously, though, these guys are so f-ing cool, you could tell they were so happy to do this for us - non stop smiling and laughing and answered all our questions BIG FLIRTS too. And to see the fans faces to actually meet them and cons and hug him, there were tears and a lot of OMG's and such happiness - it was so awesome for them to do this!!! It only took me maybe 5 minutes during the hour + autograph time and I was THIS CLOSE to them the rest of the time - like eyeball to eyeball with TAYLOR and we talked the whole time like in between chicks - HE IS SOOOO NICE!!! and so cool to hang out with and yes girls, he's happily married, sorry!! He said they were coming to CT soon to see us cool CT chickies - yeah! They played the PFTSOB in the background the whole autograph time and Cons would sing and rock out head bang to certain parts of DRIFT while he was sitting at the table waiting for the chicks to come haha. He would smile and nod at us and wave and throw out extra auto pics into the crowd that was not in line. OK so Taylor says they have to stop but will be back in 10 - promise! So they disappear and the crew takes away the table and we're all getting ACKKKKK because my group of chickies know we are going to be crotch level with the Cons in 10 minutes. Did I mention we were THIS CLOSE - LOL with NOTHING in between us and him but maybe 2 inches at best.

OK so Taylor comes back out - and says "sorry we've only had 2 practices since Christmas...but we decided to surprise Constantine and bring our equipment. But we hear it's like against the law or something for him to sing - I don't know (everyone laughs). Do you guys want him to sing?" (everyone goes nuts) He asked 3 times before the spotlight hit Cons up at the top of the stairs from the backstage area and the place freakin explodes! He is just like shaking his head and smiling shyly in embarrassment - but OMG - if you can picture it in your head it's 5 million times OMG-ness. OK walks down the stairs still shaking his head gets on stage grabs mic - THE PLACE IS FREAKING COMPLETE CRAZINESS but Cons just closed his eyes and dropped his head down and did the prayer hands zen thing...you could tell he was trying to get ready/ clear his head for the performance "get to that place" inside himself that performers go to just before they go onstage. Then he squatted down with eyes closed, trying to get to that place inside - it was fascinating to watch and be witness to this process of his...such a personal thing it seemed like to me...and it was really WOW (did I tell you I was THIS CLOSE - LOL). They played the beginning of DRIFT (NYC subway soundbyte) and the f-ing SCREAMS, like surpassed the sound barrier loudness kind of screams. Walking by the club, you would think the place was on fire - it was unbelievable!

And from that point on, our sweet little shy Constantine completely transformed into THE HOTTEST DIRTIEST SEXIEST EYE F***ING ROCK AND ROLL MOTHER F*** GOD I HAVE EVER IN MY LIFE WITNESSED - EVER.

*AKO NA TO..*

aw gawd.. don't u just wish u were there??!!! waahh.. im so friggin obsessed with constantine.. good thing i'm not the only one.. hehehe..

*calms down..*

hmm.. wala akong maisip na mailagay sa testi ni nato.. bigyan ko n lng kea to ng graphix?? hahhy naku.. manang kim.. expect ur testi to pop out of nowhere starting today..

Saturday, May 14, 2005

the days that was

as i am writing this.. my entire family (including the dogs) are watching my debut vid..

i wish i had invited my classmates.. dami pang food and the celebration turned out okay naman. Sayang talaga!

kahit kelan talaga.. waaahh.. connie.. constantine ng buhay ko!!! nakakatuwa talaga sa PEx.. visit kayo.. madaming boards dun.. magsawa kayo..

damn.. kilala nyo si candace sa nickelodeon?? sino bang pdeng paupahan para patayin sya?? sya yung kasama ni constantine na umatend sa premiere ng star wars-na f na f ni connie ko..

tapos.. me nasasagap din kameng balita na he is dating monica belucci (trinity in matrix.. korekek ba yun??) hahhhy naku..

sa uulitin.. salamat sa lahat ng bumati sakin nung bday ko.. sana lang me kasamang gift.. lol.. j/k!!

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Birthdays

Wow.. I can’t believe that I am finally eighteen years old. Sa wakes di ko na kailangang magsinungaling pag gusto kong manood ng R-18 films.. hehehe.. as if naman. I can now legally access porn sites on the web! Hehehehe.. lol.. baka pde na din akong sumali sa Manila Tonight.. hahahah..

Andaming perks pag 18 years old ka na. Pde ka ang bumoto, magdrive, uminom ng alak, manigarilyo, makipagtalik (di ka na pdeng makapagsampa o masampahan ng statutory rape!) umuwi ng kahit anong oras. Magbar hopping.. pero ako, di ko muna gagawin yang mga bagay na yan. Di naman ako atat eh.. sabi nga nila the best things happen in their own time.

Although atat din ako sa pagiging 18 kasi pwede na akong magtrabaho.

Wala naming malaking selebrasyon. Mga kamaganak ko lang at ilang mga kaibigan.

Kaya pasensya na sa lahat ng bumati sakin kung tnx lang ang naisasagot ko sa inyo. Believe me, gusto ko ding magdaosng kaarawan ko na kasama ko kayo kaso tlagang imposible.

Muli maraming salamat sa pagintindi at pag-alaala sakin sa kaarawan kong ito..

Toooodles!! Kta kits na lang sa Pasukan!!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Of Death and Life

today is a sad day...

i was surfing the net during the wee hours of the morning (2-3 am) when suddenly, our dogs began yapping like crazy. I was surprised and i knew right then and there that something has to be wrong. Our dogs never bark, unless they are in pain or if they see something/someone new that excites them. Suddenly i heard my lil cousin from behind me, asking if i was surfing the whole nyt. i asked him what was bothering him and why he isn't in bed. He said that he was sweating a lot cuz his blanket was over him when he woke up. my dad then told him that he could stay with us and sleep on the sala if he felt more comfortable there. My cousin sat at a nearby chair for a couple of minutes then my mom got up to relieve herself. A couple of minutes later.. we discovered that our sick aunt Kathy-my mom's sister.. who was sleeping in one of the rooms.. had stopped breathing. She died...

I was shocked. It has been a year since she first came to us, she had cancer. Eversince it has been trip after trip to PGH. She was under cobalt therapy. A couple of months ago, her health began a rapid decline. They decided that her only fighting chance is Kemo Therapy. One session and her health worsened, she wasn't ready to give up but her body was. She was brave, trying her best to stay healthy and yet, it just wasn't possible anymore. She was so weak, she can't eat properly. Can't even travel to the hospital. She celebrated her bday a couple of days ago. she was so happy to see all the people who meant so much to her. and last tuesday, my two other cousins -her daughter and son, left in Pangasinan, finally came. I guess she just waited long enough to see her family complete and to see all those people who meant so much to her.

My mom, my aunt Tess all said that she was telling them that she wants to go already a couple of days before-they both tried to convince her to not give up.. but i guess, her body simply couldn't take it anymore..

To my aunt Kathy, a loving mother, sister, aunt and wife, a courageous woman. Go with God Aunt.. ur now free of all humanly restraints.. we'll miss you.. we hold on through the knowledge that you're in a better place now.. where no pain can reach you.. we love you..

today is a sad day...

... a very sad day indeed.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

stupidity killed idol

i was in pinoyexchange.com.. i wanted to pick a fight with one of those stupid savol fans. i will be revisting it a few minutes after i have posted here. I am soO mad. How dare they even insinuate that that pig is better than my Connie??!! ive made new friends (well.. i hope..) in the forum. they are quite nice and as nocturnal as i am.. heheheh..

my dad ang my sister are worried about me being an insomniac once again.. my only wish is to have somebody to talk to during these nights. I wish i could play ragna kaso feel ko di sya kaya ng powers ng PC ko.

I hope that nobody watches AI today-although of course that is completely impossible.. But still, a girl can hope, can't she??!!

I was amazed by carol, xiao and yani's fan accounts and interviews with my darling greek god. He was soOOOO nice and gracious. the man is oozing class as he is oozing with sex appeal.. damn! i want him back!!!

hehehe.. ive spent all night posting and i only have ten posts to my name in pinoy exchange.. hahhy naku..

Monday, May 02, 2005

My Blog's Rebirth

whew.. after a sleepless night (can u blame me? free connection by midnight using dial-up is shitty at best!) i have finally finished refurbishing my blog. well, i know its a bit cheesy... but heck.. the guy is cute!
arf.. gusto mo ba suikoden na lang? mas mganda sya kesa dun sa sinasabi ko..
anyway.. i hope u guys like it. kung gusto nyong pagawa sakin.. bigyan nyo ko ng kopya ng template nyo.. tapos pag balik ko senyo... burahin nyo yung template (as in lahat) tapos ilagay nyo yung nasa notepad..
i am so torn. I want to go on a vacation but i have no one to go with me. My sister insists that she must stay here in Manila to undergo her basketball training. My tita is offering an all expense paid trip in subic.. hahhhyy.. but i REALLY don't want to go alone.. But of course.. other than my sister, nobody else is free to come. My parents can't go cuz my aunt is staying with us and she is terribly sick and she needs attention all the time. I wanna go somwhere, Ilocos, Samar.. wherever.. i just want to get away.. but i can't.. im so FRIGGIN BORED!!!
I'll be turning 18 on the 10th.. sadly there is no celebration..
I SO HATE IDOL!!! how dare they vote off my dear greek god.. shame on them!! I'd rather wring that big tub of lard's arrogant neck! I hate him.. oh my ever dearest constantine.. please come back..
it's been sometime since i have played my RO account.. i guess i wasn't as addicted to it as i thought..
Does anybody know when exactly is the start of our classes??

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Summer Blues

...being cooped up in the house on your free will with nothing but your baneful thoughts for company will definitely do some weird things to a person...

Thank God! for Pcs! My dad pitied me so much that he finally took care of the condition of my former PC. Yea sure.. my second hand CPU is working better than i had any ryt to expect.. all my peripherals are doin great, well, mostly anyway, my speakers are not yet working cuz i probably haven't installed the sound card driver right.. got myself a new keyboard (with weirdly shaped keys) and a big new mouse.. my only setback is that i am not able to install the friggin Microsoft office 2000 yet, so i don't have word or excel in this thing ryt now.. but all in all, its fine cuz i can roam the net.

I am sad this summer basically because we haven't been to any of the excursions we usually go to this time of year. I miss my cousins, my nieces and nephews... the serene peace found only in the mountains of Ilocos Norte. I miss the 6-hour trip where i have nothing to do but sit back and enjoy dawn unfolding between mountains, rivers and the wide expanse of the sea. I feel so free when i travel to places like that. Places so ancient that you feel like you're in another place in another time.. one look, one feel of that.. will be like manna to my starved soul..

For to be in the city.. you must suffer certain things that constantly gnaw at your peace of mind. Which makes me crave for the solace i find in nature. I love watching fields of grain (or sometimes tobacco) slowly turn to gold as the first shafts of sunlight awake them. I love standing at the top of a hill, staring down at the majestic land.. feeling every inch a goddess...

..oh well, like i said.. being cooped up at home, all alone w/ur thoughts as your only companion will really do things to person's sanity.. hehehe..

Sunday, April 10, 2005

vacation blues

hahhyy.. naku naman.. bakasyon na.. what am i supposed to do with my time now?? maybe i should begin working on losing some fat. pangatlong araw ko pa lang to na walang pasok hinahanap-hanap ko na ang gulo ng school.. ahihihihih..

salamt kay renato at kahit papano ay may pinagkakaabalahan ako ryt now.. ganda nung pinahiram nya sakin.. fly me to polaris and the classic.

story wise, mas gusto ko yung fly me to polaris.. but character wise.. mas maganda para sakin ang the classic.. weeehhh.. sang-min mahal kita!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol..

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mann.. how cute could a guy get??!! eto pang isa.. one of my fave scenes sa movie..

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hmm.. ai din.. naadik ako.. mahal ko talaga si constantine.. he's so cute!!!!!!

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Saturday, March 05, 2005

ragna addict..

ok.. pano ba yan? adik nanaman ako.. sa ragnarok. i figured ok lang naman xe magbabakasyon nanaman. at kasi medyo mataas na din ang level ko (thanks to jelai na sing bait ng priestess na character nya) ok lang kahit di ako maglaro by finals week.

sa totoo lang, wala naman akong intensyong muling magsulat dito ngayon. swerte lang kasi UBOS NA ANG RO LOAD KO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kea sa mga mababait at ginintuan ang puso jan, enge naman, kahit 10 bucks lang.. hhehehhe.. pulubi talaga. anyway, its soo cool talaga. ang bilis, wala pa kong 1 week na naglalaro, magsesecond job na ko. (salamat nga po kay jelai na nagbibigay din ng mga gamit.. hehhe). kea mga loki playerz jan, be kind pag nakita nyo ko.. nakakalat lang naman ako sa byalan. pag di nyo ko makita, malamng nakahide ako. magnanakaw na po kasi ako ngaun, di na mangkukulam (wiz). magiging rogue na po ako in a couple of days (or hours.. i wish..).

natutuwa nama ako kasi akala ko nasira nanaman tong blog ko kasi lampas na sa bandwidth ung pic pero somehow nagawan ng paran ng magaling na author ng template upang umayos muli!

ahh.. ang ngalan nga pala ng character ko ay shoujo-nezah

Thursday, February 24, 2005

damn you pc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate the world today. damn my pc, its busted AGAIN!!! i hate this. anyway.. hindi na ko pumasok sa skul kasi mukha namang walang kalalabasan yung elections. sayang nga lang kasi spongecola mamaya.. shit talaga.. sayang..

asteg talaga ang manhunt.. la lang.. mahal ko na talaga si jon johnson. anyway.. nagquizilla ako and this came up..

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

school politix and ai

Hindi ko alam kung bakit masaya ako ngayon. Everything felt right (although nakakabwiset kanina kasi ang tagal tagal bago ako nakasakay ng fx tapos yung nasakyan ko pa namamatay matay pa yung makina, kaya tuloy na late ako). Maybe it’;s because wala na sa balikat ko yung anxiety kahapon at kasi.. di na gaanong masakit yung ngipin ko.

Desidido na talaga akong tumakbo for treasurer. I know it’s a HUGE responsibility but I am confident na magagampanan ko ito sa ikasisiya ng mga ka kolehiyo ko. Kaso may problem sa comelec. But it will be sorted soon enough. Basta, please don’t forget me on Thursday.

Vote straight po ppol!!
CHD-SC
[BUKLURAN]

Lilibeth Regala for President
Rosary Macalejos for V-President
Kristine Mariano for Secretary
Noemi Munar for Treasurer
Camille Manalaysay for Auditor
Maria Reina Flaviano for PRO
Renato Hantid Jr. and Aljero Rodriguez for College Rep.

wag na lang po munang ipakalat sa mga hindi po natin kablock/ kakilala... salamat..

Astig yung american idol! Kaso disappointed ako sa 3 sa apat na bet ko. Si Anwar lang ang nakapagperform to my expectations. So cool! Moon River! God, astig! I didn’t expect Bo Bice to have a voice like Michael Bolton’s. Astig din sya. Woah.. tangkad pala ni Constantine(im not talking bout the friggin movie)!!! Cute nya talaga.. *kilig..* damn. I wish he would have performed better. Ang best performer para sa akin ngayon, syempre si music teacher Anwar Robinson

Monday, February 21, 2005

how stupid can i possibly get?

Whoa.. what a day. Grabe, napaka emotional ko ngayong araw na ‘to. Kung di lang ako yung gagang umiiyak at nagiinarte kanina papuntang food stuff, aba, tiyak na mabibwisit ako sa gagang nabanggit. Hindi kasi ako yung taong mahilig gumawa ng excuses. Alam kong ako ang may sala, although medyo napagrabe ng group members ko but if there is one person to blame… ako po yun… Nalulungkot lang ako at naiinis sa katangahan ko. Kaso whats done is done. Times like these I wish na may time machine po akow… Nadisappoint talaga ako sa sarili ko kanina sa rhetoric. Kalimutan daw ba yung line? Mahawa daw ba sa kamalian ng iba?! Di naman sa nagmamataas pero sa totoo lang I expected better, hindi lang sa mga ka grupo ko pero lalong-lalo na sa bwaka nang inang sarili ko.

Siguro kung hindi lang talaga grabe yung sakit ng ngipin ko na halos mablangko ang isipan ko pag bumubugso yung sakit, baka napabuti ko pa yung mga nangyari ngayong araw na ‘to. Ngayon, medyo humupa na. Nagkadamage pala kasi yung ngipin ko, natanggal yung dating pasta. Ayaw namang bunutin ng dentista ko kasi sabi nya maaayos pa naman yung pasta at saka masama kasing binubunot pag masakit kasi hindi tatalab yung anesthesia.

Kahapon, nakahanap na ako ng magandang blogskin para kay iszhang. Basta, pag minsang makapgiinternet kaming 2, tuturuan ko syang gamitin yung blogskin…

I’ve made up my mind. Tatakbo na talaga ako as chd treasurer under sa bukluran party. I guess gusto ko namang makaambag sa pagpapatakbo ng ating kolehiyo. Ayaw ko nang maging passive student, gusto ko namang masabing may pakialam ako sa nangyayari sa kolehiyo ko. Magagaling ang mga kapartido ko, sana nga kasing level nila ako. Siguro ilang seminar at self confidence build-up pa ang kakailanganin ko para makapantay sa kanila. Pero I swear to god, I will try my best…

Makes me wonder though, sino kaya ang treasurer ng tugon?

Hehe, iboboto nyo ba ko, if ever?! Sana nga po suportahan nyo ko.

Bago na blog ko no, pansin nyo? Yung doodleboard ay nasa tell me, yung mga links nyo, nasa leave, profile? The girl po yan and etong binabasa niyo ay nasa ilalim ng my rantings.

Oh yeah, to the maker of this blogskin, great job! Keep it up!

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Carbonara, AI, and School Elections

I dunno why but i suddenly have the urge to know how to make Carbonara. I must be goin nuts. I plan on making one by sunday. Where the fuck will i find parmesian cheese??!! oh well, fuq it, im gona use processed cheese instead. pure butter? damn... i don't even know what that looks like. Star margarine and dairy creme are butter to me and i am quite sure that those products aren't "pure" butter. Ahh. what the hell, i'll probably have a better chance of making a good carbo if i employ the help of my ever loving and very affectionate sistah...... yea, ryt.Xp

Weehh.. 6 out of the 6 people that i was rootin for in AI got through; anthony federov (the guy that had a throat infection and was diagnosed to have no voice at all yet look at him now... he sings and looks like Clay!!), Anwar Robinson (the music teacher.. so cool, calm and confident. he does stevie justice by singing his songs), Mario Vasquez (the cutie from new york-i thought he was a filipino. he looks a bit like echo dnt yah think?!great voice too!), Constantine Maroulis (roc on dude! its about time AI had their share of head bangin great fun), Carrie Underwood (aww, the country girl, awesome looks and even more awesome voice.. a bit naive but it's great on her, love her song selection-id like to know the title of the song she sang last..) and Mikaila Gordon (the preppy and in your face attitude had won me over since day 1-not to mention her great voice.. so cool and she's my age.. wow..) I think the talent that AI got this year is even better than last season, but don't get me wrong the last season was spankin but these contestants.. wow.. i think the viewers will be blown away this year...

man.. di ako pinayagang mag-overnight to discuss stuff about the election. i wasn't all that disappointed though but i would have liked to go through with it with eyes wide open and i don't believe i can do that if i don't converse with my fellow candidates. I don't have the confidence yet to handle this. man oh man...

Love Crapp!!!!!!

nung feb 14.. i gathered these stuff.. if u want more the site is http://www.lovepoemsandquotes.com

You know you are in love
when you see the world in her eyes,
and her eyes everywhere in the world.

- David Levesque -

Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.

- Stephen Packer -

The Magic Of Love

Love is like magic
And it always will be.
For love still remains
Life's sweet mystery!!
Love works in ways
That are wondrous and strange
And there's nothing in life
That love cannot change!!
Love can transform
The most commonplace
Into beauty and splendor
And sweetness and grace.
Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind!!
Love is the answer
That everyone seeks...
Love is the language,
That every heart speaks.
Love can't be bought,
It is priceless and free,
Love, like pure magic,
Is life's sweet mystery!!

- Helen Steiner Rice -

Love feels no burden,
thinks nothing of trouble,
attempts what is above its strength,
pleads no excuse of impossibility...
It is therefore able to undertake all things,
and it completes many things,
and warrants them to take effect,
where he who does not love would faint and lie down.
Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.
Though weary, it is not tired;
though pressed, it is not straitened;
though alarmed, it is not confounded...

- Thomas A. Kempis -

We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive,
where every sense is heightened,
and every emotion is magnified.
Our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,
but that doesn't diminish its value,
because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

- From the movie "The Mirror Has Two Faces" -
(starring Barbara Streisand)

Love is not blind - It sees more and not less,
but because it sees more it is willing to see less.

- Will Moss -

Love Survives

Time to share is always there

I peered thru life
Ever avoiding strife
But now am undone
My barriers broken
For one has found me

Reached in and unbound me

Her love has burst my bonds
And set music to my songs
Her need for me
And mine for she
Has made my Winter Spring

A new start
With hammering heart
We color the world with our dream
Nothing is as it did seem
The darkness of my solitude is done
She - my rising sun.

- Robert K. Charron -

When She Walks By

Eyes so dark
Heart so pure
I could never love another
The way I love her
Gleam in her eyes
Like a candles flame
I love when I hear her
Call out my name
When she walks by
Birds stop their flight
The dead come to life
And the blind regain their sight
I could never love another
The way I love her
Eyes so dark
Heart so pure

Skin so soft
Soul on fire
She fills me with
Complete desire
The way she moves
The way she looks
One glance at her
Was all it took
When she walks by
People stare
At her radiant face
And her ebony hair
She fills me with
Complete desire
Skin so soft
Soul on fire

Perfect body
A scholar's mind
Michelangelo would envy
Such a find
Beautiful smile
Always sincere
Whoever's around
Wants her near
When she walks by
Angels weep
Gods hide their faces
And lovers leap
Michelangelo would envy
Such a find
Perfect body
A scholar's mind

- Patrick Possanza -

You don't marry someone you can live with,
you marry the person who you cannot live without.

- Unknown -

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

- The Bible : 1 Corinthians 13:4

If you have it [love],
you don't need to have anything else.
If you don't have it,
it doesn't matter much what else you do have.

- Sir James M. Barrie -

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

i hate going to school

nakakainis na. wala kaming classes today kasi nga may concert sa gabi tapos may program. Nakakaasar.. medyo masaya lang ako kasi.. sikreto, basta, masaya ako. Yoko nang mag-aral!!!!!!!!

I was just talking to cristle, one of my classmates back in elem. She's based in U.S. now. It was nice talking to her, remembering our elementary days.

sorry.. i really can't help myself.. i love quizilla..

lonely
You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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isa pa.. cute ng pic eh..

bluehair
Your anime hair color is blue.

What is your anime hair color?
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

quizilla...

as usual.. i took this quiz and got this really neat photo.. it's so kawaii...

HOT
You like the prince charming type.


What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

ok.. i took another one. i thought this quiz only has 1 outcome.. apparently not.. thought the result was too good to be true.. heheh..
You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

hmm.. firey huh.. tapos dun sa isa ice.. hahhyy.. ewan..

Fire
Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by Quizilla

here's another one... the pic is really nice.. gheheheh

1
BEAUTIFUL ICE PRINCESS/PRINCE .You need distance
between you and your partner in your
relationship. You are very difficult to get.
You have big requirements and this one you love
must try hard to get you. But after she/he melt
your heart she/he will be the most happy person
in the world. You need someone who shoes you
that you are special and it makes you feel
good to see that you are loved. She/He shall
know that you could easily get another
girl/boyfriend but you wont as long as you
love him. when she/he hurts you you will hurt
him too, but in general you dont get hurt. If
your partner cheated you ,you would react cold
and immediately (try to) forget him.


~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla

Monday, February 14, 2005

monday yet again. whoppeee!!

i was so relieved.. buti na lang di natuloy yung choral interp namin sa rhetoric. di din natuloy yung flag ceremony. all in all, napaka anti climax (climatic) ng araw na ito (kweh.. tama bang gamit?). sayang, i thought i would finally get to finish watching MAY with my friends kaso bad trip me Philippine studies pa nga pala. wala naman kaming pinagusapan kundi corruption and all that. Masaya naman kaso syempre gusto ko namang makasama mga kaibigan ko. dami ko nang ikukwento sa kanila na di ko masabi sa mga taong nakakahalubilo ko araw araw. mwahahaha.. saya talaga mag net pag di sau yung card na gamit mu.. mwahahaahhahahahhhh!!

hapi puso sa may mga puso... ^_^

Thursday, February 10, 2005

another day...

Hmmm, paramg gusto kong bawiin yung 2nd paragraph na naisulat ko ditto kahapon. Kasi parang di ko naman siya talaga.. u know, gustong gusto. Siguro naiinggit lang ako sa kanya or something. I dunno..

Natatawa ako kanina sa FX. May foreigner na sumakay, sa gitna. Katabi ko siya. From his accent, siguro british or English sya. Syempre ako tong si deadma, wa pake, although nahahagip ko yung mga pinaguusapan nila nung babaeng nasa dulo. Parang business associates sila although from what I saw of the woman, she looked more like his maid. If I didn’t hear her speak in straight, fluent and flowing English, I would have really dismissed her as his… you know… it’s not like I haven’t seen some foreigner dragging a filipina “companion” around who looked like something that you would usually find at the end of a leash and introduce her as his wife or would start making out when he thinks it is private enough for American standards. Nung una pa lang, apprehensive na ako. Pano kung may sumakay ditong sobrang taba? E di ipit nanaman ako. For the first time in my life, I was able to appreciate the height and body built of Filipino men. They don’t take up much room.. (heheheh..). back to my story, Que horror! Yung sumiksik nga sa tabi ko ay isang matabang babae. Buti na lang di sya matangkad kaso.. pucha pinagsisiksikan niya yung sarili nya sa kakatiting na space. She was wiggling and she was making it uncomfortable for me. But I have to give it to the foreigner. He did not try tricks Filipino men usually try in that situation (which is using their elbows to try and touch your boobs). He kept his hands together and tucked them between his legs. I appreciate that cuz I am very ticklish and I hate having another person touch any part of my abdomen. Still, the ever so insensitive woman started fidgeting again, throwing an apologetic smile at the foreigner when he looked her way. She didn’t seem to notice that it was I to whom she is being a moron to. Thank God their destination is not that far (although I believe the fx driver overcharged them). It just pains me to see us Filipinos going out of our way to please foreigners when our brothers and sisters who are in their country are discriminated against, treated as slaves and condemned to being an inferior. I wish we were a bit more like the french. They have so much respect for their country that they expect the foreigners to speak their native tongue when conversing with them as long as they are staying in their country.

Tommorow, another day. I wish na sana makapagpraktis na kami sa rhetoric. Naiinis na talaga ako…

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Have you ever?

No.. this is not a song, hindi to tula. Gusto ko lang maglabas ng mga saloobin ko. Sabi rin sa mga pelikulang napapanood ko, the best way to find one’s peace of mind is to talk about the things that hinder it (one’s peace of mind). So eto, nilalatag ko ang aking mga saloobin dahil sobrang bigat na, di ko na talaga kaya.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko hahanapin ang focus na kailangan ko upang makapasa sa semestreng ito. Sobrang dami ng iniisip ko. Choral speech sa rhetoric, report sa IT, Economics, Philippine studies, mga midterms na hindi pa tapos at pano nanaman mag exist ng isang buong araw. Ang hirap talagang magfocus. Kasi… stupid talaga. Ineng naman, alam mo namang bawal paganahin ang puso habang dapat ay ginagamit ang utak. Di malalaman ng katawan kung sinong susundin. Ah basta. Okupado niya ngayon ang isipan at emosyon ko. Buti nga di nila pansin-I really hope it stays that way. Wish ko lang, a few more weeks, sana nga di nila mapansin para I’ll have the whole vacation dedicated to losing myself unto greater, more logical and useful things. Sa mga nakakaalam na, please bear with me. Lam ko di nyo sya gusto so I’m hoping na mas madali para senyo na itago to. Ingats ingats na lang po sa pagmemention… Oh well, Maybe it’s just a seasonal thing. *my lips are bleeding.. again, well, the left corner of it anyway..* Baka nahawa lang ako sa dami ng mga lovers ngayon lalo na’t magvavalentines. Kaso, sobra na to eh, as in di na ako makapag-focus sa mga dapat kong gawin, dapat isipin at dapat abalahin. I just think of him and poof! All the sensible thoughts, schedules and deadlines suddenly vanish. Di kaya may ginayuma to tapos imbes na dun sa girl eh sa ‘kin backfire ung spell? Syet talaga.. nakulam nya nga yata ako…

Naranasan nyo na bang kwestiyonin ang isang desisyong ginawa mo na as in siguradong-sigurado ka na kaso parang ngayon di ka na sure? Eto ang mahirap sa buhay, hindi pwedeng pag sa palagay mong mali, pwedeng magreturn sa last save point at magsimula muli. Dito sa tunay na mundo, hindi pwede kasi may consequence ang lahat ng iyong ginagawa. Di pwedeng basta-bastang magbago ng goal sa buhay. PARANG AYAW KO NANG MAGING TEACHER, DI KO YATA KAYA. Etong realisasyon na ito ang sumalubong sakin habang nagrereport ako nitong nakaraang linggo. Kung kayo/sila ngang maituturing na mga edukado, may mataas na pinag-aralan at may ambisyon sa buhay ay di ko kayang makayanang makuha ang atensyon at respeto habang nasa harapan ako ng klase-ano pa kayang tsansa ko sa mga batang highschool na puro kabulastugan at kalokohan lang ang mga laman ng mga utak?! Ang sakit kasi, nung tipong nageexplain ka sa harap tapos walang nakikinig sayo. Para kang binastos-or maybe, that’s just me. Kasi masyado akong nasanay na pinakikinggan ng mabuti ang bawat kong salita, mapakanta man o reporting nung nasa highschool ako kaya siguro ganito ang pakiramdam ko. MEDIOCRE, INCOMPETENT… eto ang mga salitang paulit-ulit na lumalangoy sa aking diwa. Ayaw kong maging mediocreng guro. Kung magiging mediocreng guro ako, bah, maghahanap na lang ako ng propesyon kung saan maibibigay kong lubos ang aking talento at napag-aralan. Oo na, idealistic masyado. Pero anong mangyayari sakin kung di ako magiging idealistic?! Magiging isang nilalang akong di maabot ang rurok ng aking potensyal-at iyon ang di ko mapapayagan. Hahhy.. sana may makatulong sa aking makapagdesisyon, dahil hindi na talaga ako tiwala sa dinidikta ng aking isipan.

nice poem from robert frost..

aside from ms. Dickinson, Robert frost is also one of my favored poets. there's something about his poems that make them unique..

Fire and Ice

Robert Frost

Some say the world will end in fire;
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To know that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

..i so agree with him..